Julie Cahalan (Ann Arbor, MI)

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"I’m a fairly independent person. It has been one of the hardest things for me to handle since having children. What do you mean I need to add at least a 30 minute buffer to getting anywhere? And even then it sometimes isn’t long enough. The word “quick” completely left my vocabulary. Nothing is quick anymore. Add child number two and three and using the word “quick” in reference to anything is pretty laughable. I’m quick to get frustrated with my kids when things aren’t going “my way”. I have a tendency to set expectations that I feel are realistic, but really aren’t, and then throw a tantrum, along with my kids sometimes, when they aren’t met. The other day this happened. My daughter was being stubborn and I lost my temper. Awhile later in the car she asked, “Mommy do you feel better now since you yelled at me?” No, no child, I don’t feel better. In fact I feel like a terrible mom right now. I don’t know about you, but seeking forgiveness is hard enough but having to ask your child for it regularly is life giving but can be brutal. Admitting my failures to this small being that I try so hard to show God’s love and grace to. The Lord has a knack for using my children to put my weaknesses right before me. To see in their eyes or their actions what they see me doing and then mimic it. Areas that I know I need to give up to the Lord but cling to so desperately. I can control this area why should I give it up? Well, a large piece of humble pie is received almost daily over here. The Lord uses these moments to remind me that in my weakness He is strong. He is my Father and loves me even though I may stray away and do things on my own. He continually welcomes me back with open and loving arms."
2 Cor 12:9 “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness”.